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[08 Jun 2005|09:50am] |
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K, Theres this boy and he is amazing. Iv never actually felt this way before and we havent been going out that long. He gives me butterflies. I know i sound gay but hes the best person ever. I like how he rings me up just to hear my voice and when i ring him he screams my name really loud with excitement no matter where he is. I like waking up with him in his arms. I like how he kisses me on my head in front of all his friends and doesnt care if they rip him.
I hate how he lives so far away. Last night i actually cried because i missed him so much. This boy has really got to me.
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[08 Jun 2005|09:27am] |
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K so, i was browsing through my live journal and some 'anonymous' fucker decides to leave me an abusive comment. I know who you are. Jerk. I hope you die of aids and fast. Im sick of the shite ive been through and youd have thought that id have friends to support me but no. Im sick of all the gossiping, two-facedness, selling out, threats and just generally being treat like shite from people. Your not better than me so stop acting like you are. And to be honest, in most of these 'little tiffs' im not the one that started it. You did. You used to be the best friend a person could ask for, i used to have so much fun with you but things changed. Yeah i admit i changed but you changed too. Can you even remember why you fell out with me?! I miss you. The old you.
Grow.The.Fuck.Up.
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[12 May 2005|12:13pm] |
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Last fucking day of School/College/Hell tomorrow. Ima bit excited.
Ive decided to take a break from this education thing. It isnt me. So after Friday i only have to go in for my exams and my last one is on June 29th. After that im officially free and plan to get a flat with zara in leeds somewhere. I cant wait. This is what ive been wanting all my life and its actually hapenning and soon.
Im the happiest person alive innit'
Anyway Friday will be good, wer all off to the pub during school, then im off to meet zara in leeds and wer going for a drink, then wer off out to the usual haunts. So apologies now but i might be a bit worse for wear if you see me out as ill have started drinking at 12. Hmm...
I hope a lot of people are out. Last week wasnt all that good. Spent all night crying in Star on my own cos im a proper fag like that.
Mel, get out. Your never out these days, but if you do come out, wear a binliner or something please so you dont look hot. Same to you Zara. Thanks x x
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[01 Mar 2005|01:29pm] |
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Well....
For the past few nights i've been having some reet weird-as dreams involving my friends in some kind of action film.
First one:
Laura,Phill and Troy turned up at my work and i was wearing rockport wellies cos i'd forgotten my work shoes and had to wear the 'spare shoes' and they were ripping the hell out of me,cos i looked a right fag.
Then I ran away with them from work cos I didn’t wanna wear these stupid boots.
The next thing I know we're walking down the yellow brick road into this really bombdig hotel.
Then they all leave me to go take my dog for a walk.
I go to school then they turn up again to see me.Phill and Troy disappear and Laura asks a teacher where the toilets are and the teacher asks Laura if shes a visitor.Laura tries to blag the teacher by saying shes an ex-pupil from 5 years ago and has the right to be here(in a panic)and that she moved to live in Alwoodlydyke.
(Ha.I dont know if that is actually a place but 'laura lives there' anyway.)
So the teacher clocks Lauras lying and tells her to get out but i grab lauras hand and we start running to the toilets with this teacher chasing us.
We run to the top floor of the language building and the teacher is at the door at the top of the stairs so im barracading that door shut and we try and leave via the fire exit but more teachers are there so we block all the doors off and we're trapped.
Then Troy and Phill reappear and Troy grabs the fire hose and unravels it all, throwing it out of the window. Phill and Troy jump out of the window and Laura and I climb down the hose out of the window jumping over roofs and getting back onto the yellow brick road where we ended up on a beach.
Weird.
Second dream:
Me,Cara,Mel,Zara and 4395231404 more people that i cant remember all decide to go play LASERQUEST in this mansion with 100000 floors and staircases.
So Me and Zara decide to sneakily pair up while telling everyone else its a singles game.So me and zara are kicking serious ass, we're all having fun then the game turns.....
The Scene kids turn up and Charlotte Church, Uninvited
(I said these dreams are weird)
So Me and Zara are fighting people but it turns into an actual battle.People are dying but me and Zara aren't the ones that have shot them as we have 'pretend guns'.
We look down the stairs and see Mel dying and all our friends leaning against the walls or on the floor.So me and Zara are like 'uh-oh' Theres just Me and Zara left in the game, but it wont let us finish. Then we spot all the scene being lead by Davey, joining in our game and ruining it. They're on the bottom floor checking that the people are dead.
Me and Zara start shooting at them and kill Charlotte Church then most of the scene are dead and theres only Davey left to kill but we cant see him anywhere.
So me and zara go into the kitchen where the basement door is open and in there is Cara tied up and gagged.As we rush over to untie her she hits Zara on the head,knocking her out and then attacks me. As I'm coming around i see Cara pick up a pair of shoes that 'davey' was wearing and a wig.
She then tells me that She framed Davey and dressed up as him so that everyone would think it was him that killed all these people and it was her way of killing the scene and brainwashing them.
The End.
♥
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[24 Feb 2005|09:52am] |
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How many times my clothes got soaked this week: 5
How many times i fell today: 12
How many times i got caught in the middle of the snowball crossfire : 21
How many layers i have on now : 4
I love snow.
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[22 Feb 2005|11:05am] |
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Wooooop.Got t'internet back at last.which means major lj updates and myspazz to check which im dreading as theres just gonna be like friends requests and messages from utter fags. KissKissBangBang:'u sem kool and pretty.I av never notisd u wer on me frends list.wanna chat?'</font> Nooooo.
Myspace is getting full of losers now.(German Jamie) who seems to haunt carpe diem EVERY friday now.ohgod.'Ich bin deutsch und ich habe einem problem.Ich bin einen FAG' Your not german and yes you are a fag. But its the rules ya see, you cant say 'your off myspace' so i'll act like a tit instead that'll make you like me.If you say so.
Went to see greenday some time ago.It was possibly theee best experience EVER. And cue 'time of your life' jokes.Newcastle was a dump.Seedy.Zara and I were waiting for my mother to come collect us and some Pimp came over and was like 'ehehe these gals over there have been watching you for a while. They wanted me to give you this' *hands over a slip of paper*
Modelling/acting/escorting
£250 p/hr
Confidential/discreet
Work asap.
Call Venus 585035024-055
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Eurgh. Porn.Prostitutes.
No thanks.
Fridays have gone back to the usual getting pissed with the crew innit'.
I love it.
Although i do think fab and sports bar and and bassment are been neglected.
Carpe diem is the new strawbs.Everyone is there and its just amazing.Although JoeJamieCosta seem to be there aswell.Eurgh
Went out in fancy dress last week.ha.Bollywood.White bra.hmmm i looked rad.You were all just jealous i think.
This friday was spiffing.Carpe with Lau, Phill, Zar and Jut-e.Saw spoon.I miss that boi. Troy turned up when we were all justabit drunk. I can remember licking some guys nipple.Can someone please tell me why.
After carpe we all went Star.You know like we said we wouldnt.It turned out to be really good.I was hitting on kettlewell and pulled a few people that i wish i didnt.Regret.ooooh yes.Ohhh the 'duo' look hot.Ya know they're not that bad zara.
They were.but x181482342345.
Beer goggles innit.
Me and Zara made friends with a rite munter in toilets. She thought zara was called stacey.I enjoyed that.Alot.
'Im gonna be sick.Look *deep breaths* stacey and whitney *deep breaths* Stacey look at me.*staggering and looking at me* Come find me *deep breaths* we'll have a dance *deep breaths* *eyes crossed* Stacey.Stacey.....'
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[24 Jan 2005|12:20pm] |
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This weekend has been brilliant.
My friends are like theeeee best.
Im proper in love with my chemical romance since thursday.I cant get over how amazing they were.Enough about that mind.
Friday was so good.Met zara & mel and went to carpe where Everyone was.
Troy,Laura,Phill,Emma,Badger,Mikey,Jazz,Rich&Tim,Pad,Luke,Danny,Costa&Joe,Jut-e & Kettlewell
Where we proceeded to get merry.
Saw Richard&Kez from ADI who were talking to us.Legendary kids.
Laura got gang-banged by tim,troy and phill.No one helped.we took photos of it.Missed out on the ice cube game.tsk.It was just good to see everyone out who i havent seen in ages.I proper love my friends.I just had so much fun.I think the alcohol may have had a large influence mind.
We took loads of photos and pimped up 'myspace poses'
Stayed in carpe for like 7 hours and went to Star.Saw more people in there.
Danced and stared at all the beautiful bois.so many ♥
Went to get a taxi and some wise-crack guy tried to steal my ruby slippers to 'get home faster ehehe.Click your heals dorothy' Oh go die.w****r
Had to be up at 6am saturday morning.which hurt a lot.Had 4 hours sleep.
Supposed to meet troy,zara and mel after work but theyd been there ages and were getting bored so i went to a party instead which turned out to be awesome.Got slaughtered and danced with jenny like a lesbian to eveeyones disgust.Its all good.Chatted to people id drifted apart from in the past months.It felt good catching up on old times.
♥ x ♥
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[21 Jan 2005|11:34am] |
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Thursday turned out to not be as good as i anticipated.Tsk.
Although My Chemical Romance made me ecstatic.♥
Met zara in leeds and we bumped into troy at carpe and got tipsy.love it.
Lau and phill arrived about an hour or so later and we had a good ol' laugh there.
Left carpe and walked down to refectory where me and zara spotted mel and pushed in to the front of the queue.Legged it to front of the barrier for an unknown band who turned out to be suave.We were stood next to a beautiful boy who we took a photo of just cos we can.he loved it.Made friends with an american guy who was going to 'cream in his pants when mcr come on' Thanks.
We were stood behind theeee biggest les ever.Mel kept groping her.yes dear you.
My Chemical Romance came on and everyone went Mental
oh you gotta love 'em.Frank+Gerrard+'Thank-you for the venom'=Better than foreplay.
Me,Zara and mel were pushed reet up ont barrier which ended up in zar spacin out on me and some les saying i should get her out of pit.Like i can move love?
Zar and i left mel in t'pit and went for a walk.Spotted a guy in a tight pink Bring me the horizon tee and tight jeans.Oh i woulda.This proceeded in us stalking their crew all night.Two of the guys smiled at me and zara and came and stood next to us.Score.
Saw a few people i knew but none of the myspace crew.
Tbs were pretty lame.Although when a decade under the influence came on we went mental.
Just Sat my psychology exam.Yep failure! woop woop.It blew.
And now im going to meet Zara ♥ and do lunch and go to carpe and get merry.
♥ x ♥ x
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[20 Jan 2005|12:23pm] |
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Oohh ooh.The weekend has begun.Its going to be thee best.
Just had a sociology exam which went surprisingly well to say i hadnt revised and instead of revising,I was scrawling His name everywhere.Tsk.A crush.♥Oh hes theee most beautiful thing like ever.
Anyway im going to go meet le zara and the rest of the posse at carpe soon and get merry there.
Then go to Tbs/My Chemical Romance at the refectory.Ooooh yes.Cant wait.
Tomorrow shall be suave as.Its Laura's birthday been a month since ive seen all my friends and gone out.Cant wait.Hopefully the bouncers at Bassment wont be *bleeping**bleepers*.And i do hope everyone is in carpe.
Ooh yeah.
Saturday= another birthday party although its going to be full of scalls and etc.I care not.They'll be all doped up to notice and carry on.
♥ x ♥
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A girl falls asleep in 'safe hands'
She awakes to a nightmare.
Her pride & dignity stripped.
She tries to say something.Anything.
Her voice just a fragile whisper.
A tear rolls down her cheek.It goes unnoticed.
She feels cold.
She looks down at her cold,lifeless body laying on his bed.
Closing her eyes is her only escape.
Her mind and body are numb.
She cant move,frozen with fear.
She feels ashamed,though she knows it isnt her fault.
She feels sick.
She feels anger.
But most of all she feels fear.
Trust disappears.
Their friendship is over.
The girls life is shattered.
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[12 Jan 2005|12:15pm] |
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Zara edited my lj!
Thanks dear.It was a pile of **** before.Eurgh.You made it purdy.
Love yoo ♥
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[12 Jan 2005|11:14am] |
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Hehe so The Used are sold out.Woop.Talk about organsiation.I was like ooooh The Used i so have to see them.3 months down the line..."what This Friday?!" ah.
Anyhew zara had a plan of venturing down there on the train and buying one of a fat shifty dyke outside.The plan backfired as my dad is been a cunt and wont let me go.Also hes decided oh you cant go to tbs either.Even though iv had my ticket for months.Whatacock.
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[07 Jan 2005|01:35pm] |
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New year.New start.
2004 is behind me now so i need to move on and correct any flaws.
Apologies to people i hurt/offended/annoyed etc.I hope i can be forgived.
Also i wanna take this opportunity to thank all my friends ive had over this past year.New and old.Youve all been there for me through good times and bad and even when ive been pathetic and felt sorry for myself.I truly am grateful for you all sticking by me.
Thank-you to my closest friends that supported me and helped me through my rape i truly dont know what id have done without you.
Zara youve been my rock.Youve been there for me 24/7 when i needed you the most.Thanks doll.I didnt really say thank-you but here it is.I ♥ you to ...infinity.yep.
I think that is all apart from Happy New Year to you all.
♥ x2005
xoxo
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[16 Dec 2004|06:38pm] |
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Fuck.Fuck.where the hell do i start.I feel like i cant trust anyone these days.i mean occasionally friends stab me in the back but i get over it and i realise ive got a few true best friends who i could rely on with all my life.and then my other friends and i make up and im like oh fair enough i forgive them but then i go read a myspace comment left by them and it hurts so fucking much.and i get these little digs occasionly.I used to be such a strong person but this 'incident' that happened to me has knocked me for six and im such a weak person now.im going through shit at this moment in time i just want to die as i cant even trust anyone in my life.they all seem to take advantage or slag me off.i cant trust friends, my work colleagues or even my parents anymore.what the hell have i got left?
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[25 Nov 2004|07:19pm] |
Wow,so havent made an entry in like 5 months.Score.Myspace is my new addiction.I need to edit my livejournal.Its poor.Im just too feckin lazy.Im just sat doing nothing when i should be sorting out uni stuff, learning to drive, revising etc.Im not.I keep thinkin oh ill do it tomorrow and so on.Im feeling pretty blahhh of recent.Everyone is in a relationship,im happy for them but I feel like an utter spinster.Bridget jones just made everything worse.cow.Everywhere i look theres couples.Two of my best friends are always with their boyfriends now.I feel guilty, cos i should be happy and instead im feeling jealous and gutted and i wanna spend time with them but they wanna be with their boyfriends now.I guess I took hanging out with them for granted.So yeah i sound like a full on miserable child.sorry.♥
I wanna be different.I hate me.I hate my hair.I hate the way i look.I hate the clothes i wear.I always look shit no matter how hard i try and theres all these hot fucks with the piercings,style etc.and they dont even try.Fuck.
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[12 Jul 2004|12:02pm] |
Ahh, so i haven't updated in a while. Nothing much to really say.Except Rob is sexy (he made me type that, hes sat next to me) Anyway,went bowling,for my birthday but that was crap i ended up crying most of the night and me n rich fell out :( But then met jamie <33 n he was cool n sed he really liked me etc. etc. Luke n pad told me stuff about him,which i chose to ignore cos i was naive. Silly Whitney! They turned out to be right as hes now seeing gemma, thanks to my ringing him and shouting at him which therefore drove him to gemma. Now im hurt :( oh wells
Zara and Rich cheered me up however as they were gunna ring and bollock him for screwing people around.
So ive been pretty annoyed cos of our apparent 'friends' who just seem to stab us in the back.
Anyway wanted to get that off my chest. Ahh
Mildred sucks, she followed me today and i am typing this with her 1 metre away from me, risky!!
x x x x
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[24 Jun 2004|09:23pm] |
Today was not very eventful, in fact the whole week has been ohsopoor. It seems to have just rained and rained and now im bored of it.
Im currently in the resource center playing on this bad boy.Me n Emma found a photo of the ugliest woman ever!!!!! the things u do wen ure bored.
This morning was cool as,apart from an argument with Paul.
I came back to my bag which had drawings of a skater guy with an asda bag, a random bearded guy and signatures from all my friends <33 It looked cool :)
Got told a chick fancies me!! I feel flattered <3 Go me!!
Emma is hot! i have a shrine of her in my room
Ste is the best
Sutty is the shit
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[09 Jun 2004|11:45am] |
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Friday, went to meet Paul, chilled at his house for a bit, and then went into Leeds, where we bumped into his girlfreind (at the time) , so we ran and went bowling. Where I won a game, and we played pool.
Then we went up to Rich's house, and ate lots of food. The pizza guy so wanted me, and Rich even yelled that he did, before the door had shut, and the pizza guy was gone.. he was disgusting.
Saturday I worked. Yay. I then went to meet Paul, Lyonsy and Stu, and then we called for Rich, followed by the school field, and had a grass fight (where it went down my pants and in my mouth) and we took alot of pics, and then it was cold, so we left.
Sunday, worked, and then went bowling with the guys from Envy and Costa, except Envy had a 500+ crew, and we had like... 6. But, Jack was there, and he is ultra-fine so that made me happy. I won a bowling game, and came in 2nd in the other one!
Me and Emma then got REALLY drunk, we were the only girls even drinking... And we then went on this ride where payed £4 for a virtual ride where all we did was get bruised and sweaty. Not fun. Then we played some air hockey.
Bobby and Jack then gave us a lift home, and the bumper fell off, so Jack had to climb out of the window and fix it back on then he gave me a kiss goodnight when I got out. <33
Tuesday I had a biology exam blue.</b> And we bought some hair dye for me, however we decided not to now, cause I'd be grounded and it would run. Then I went home and my dog chewed me, and I blew some bubbles. Go me!
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